Michael: Hey everyone, and welcome back to another episode of Doctors Living Deliberately. Hi, Arpita. How's everything going today?
Arpita: It's good. Michael Hersh, how you doing?
Michael: I am doing great and I am so excited to introduce to you our next guest. So today we have Dr. Nupi Arora. She is a general practitioner and family medicine physician out of Manchester, England, and she also goes by the name the Glitter Practitioner, and I am excited to ask her more questions about that. She is also a burnout warrior, a spiritual and transformational life coach. She's a public speaker and she has not one but two livestream shows on LinkedIn live with the glitter practitioner and their supernova sisters. Please help me welcome Dr. Nupi Arora. Hi, Dr. Nupi.
Nupi: Oh, hi Michael. It's so lovely to see you. Hi Arpita, it's gorgeous to meet you. Thank you both for inviting me onto your podcast. I'm honored to be here, so thank you.
Arpita: Thank you. We're glad that you're here with us. I would love for you to tell us a little bit about how you actually recognized that you were no longer living with intention per se, and what you did from there. How did you discover coaching and, and tell us a little bit about that part of your story.
Nupi: Sure. Wow. Okay. So I've always been drawn into medicine, always, and that has been from a pretty young age. I've always been curious to know what's going on behind the scenes, what's going on behind that person. I've always been quite holistic and loving what I do. I'm following my purpose. And then I was a GP partner. So I've been a doctor, I've been in, within the NHS for 25 years. I've been a GP partner for 17 of those. So this is the mainstay of my profession.
And I had, had twins. I returned to work when they were eight months old, and initially I was like, okay, I can do this. I can be the mummy, I can be the doctor, I can do my clinics, I can do this. Underneath it all, I was sort of a bit overwhelmed, but back then I was still a perfectionist. I am now a reformed one. I was like, no, I can do this. And just kept pushing through. And there was a lot of pressure and tension left, right, and center. And I just didn't give myself a break. I was just, okay no, I, I have to prove myself. I kept pushing, pushing, pushing, pushing and I was getting physical symptoms. Aches and pains, not sleeping. I put it down to the twins being babies and I'm having interrupted sleep, for example, and my body was talking to me even then and I was kind of ignoring it, and I remember just feeling completely exhausted, frazzled.
And it was just getting harder and harder to be that energy source, to be this, as people described me and my husband did, as this radiant sunflower of energy and people just gravitate towards that. I couldn't put the mask on any longer. I was literally disappearing in front of my eyes, and the only way I can describe it is I remember my husband saying, you are this radiant sunbeam to other people and la la and I'm looking at him going, can you not see inside me? I'm an absolute weed. I'm literally nothing. I'm a shrivelled up mess. And I just was on autopilot. And then a couple of other things happened, which made me stop and go, okay, I'm so not okay. It was an insidious thing. It was three to four years, and all I can describe it was just this black hole of this. And there was like a track on repeat of name, shame, blame, constantly. This is what I was feeling and thinking and I just didn't know myself anymore.